Okay, I don't find this productive. I need motivation & inspiration.
Whatever it is, my life is currently in the mediocre mode. Why?
● In class, I sit in between Swee Ling & Jia Jia. ♥
● I have wonderful people as companions.
● I still miss GFs, especially MNG #1.
● I rarely get sick nowadays. Just slight headaches & runny noses. -_-
● I'm not getting cold shoulders as frequent as last time.
● I'm actually disciplining myself to ignore the shits happening around me.
And, I think I really need to rant this out. I don't care if you feel the pinch or what, just take it with a pinch of salt. I really don't like to do this but you're the reason why I'm doing this.
You should really look at yourself before talking to me. Whatever comments you're throwing at me or have thrown at me, please, I think it's somehow somewhat reflects back to you. I'm not saying that you're a bitch or something but yeah, I think you're really nice on the inside just that you're influenced to say harsh things or think bad stuffs about me. Just a tip from me, DON'T LET THE DEVIL IN YOU ENGULF YOU. You've changed, that's all. Yeap, that's about it.
Pardon me, but I really need to let go of that burden.
Anyway, I find it quite dumb for me to actually lock myself up in my room & cry just because Mama & Papa didn't allow me to watch Hana Kimi. Gah! How old am I, may I ask myself? Sheesh. Thank god, Mama didn't like suck up to me 'cause I know I'll definitely step on her head, literally. Meaning, getting over the limit. I need to act like a teenager. I'm not gonna be like others. ;)
And I shall not brood over that but continuing on it today! Later to be exact. Yeay! And after watching an episode or two, I shall start on my homework. I really need to be... uhm, disciplined (HAHA!). I need to show my parents that I am actually trying my best to study for my 'N's. They really think I'm making a fool out of myself for attending school for just the sake of attending school. And I fucking hate it the moment they compare me with my elder brother.
Well at least I don't sleep in school. :P
